41 He withdrew about a stone’s throw beyond them, knelt down and prayed, 42 “Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done.” 43 An angel from heaven appeared to him and strengthened him. 44 And being in anguish, he prayed more earnestly, and his sweat was like drops of blood falling to the ground.[c]
Friends, the outcome of the surgery was not what we were hoping and praying for. One of the lymph nodes in the center of my chest showed cancer despite the negative PET scan. The doc estimated this as a 5% possibility before surgery. Having found this, they stopped the surgery and I will be treated for this cancer by radiation and chemotherapy. Given the very unlikely odds of everything that has happened this week, I am more convinced than ever that this is a custom-made trial authored by my Father in heaven. I believe this with all my heart - there are people who will be touched, reached, and yes, saved because of this trial, provided I submit, honor and praise the Lord no matter what.
I know He can heal me with a thought, and yet I know that is not always His plan. I submit to His will for my life, as does Renee, while we pray for healing and mercy. And really - what do I have to be bitter about? There are hospitals throughout the world built for children with cancer. Child or adult, we all need to understand that God will redeem ALL of the suffering of His people, as He said He would - His plan is an eternal plan, not a plan of years on this fallen earth. If I may modify the great hymn, "When we've been there ten thousand years, bright shining as the sun - it won't matter whether we lived 30, 50, 70, or 100 years on earth. We might not even remember.
You won't be surprised to hear that I am very anxious to get out of here....my CLL docs will decide when they are satisfied with the progress of my pneumonia and hopefully let me go in a day or two. Please pray for us in this regard as well as for special closeness to God, comfort, peace, and blessed assurance. Thank you all.....Dan and Renee